Soul of a loaded gun

It worked I put one foot in front of the other and I managed to get to here what can I say! is it a success lets find out shall we?

The last blog was full of doom and gloom and yet again I wasn't in a good place (I'm probably still not but I am trying harder) and it took me until this morning where I was able to blast some awesome music (it really does sooth the savage beast) it didn't matter what it was, the Ipod was put on shuffle so I got a bit of 70's stuff mixed up with some more modern stuff and it was the best medication I could have had, the day started well and so far(touch wood) has carried in the same direction, that is the first time I have been reasonably happy for more than twelve hours without any black clouds even though I still had to deal with idiots and all that that entails! Monday Tuesday were full of black moods and growls and most people kept out of my way, they know when I'm like that everybody is wasting their time. I still do my job more professionally than 99.9% of the rest of the feckers but hey ho I needed desperately to get out of my funk and music as always helped, mind you Def Com One at six in the morning might clear my head but everybody else just got the hell out of dodge.

It still seems if I have crapped in somebody's teapot in a previous life time, because if I liked lemonade I could  make a fortune with the amount of Lemons coming my way but as long as I can have a day like this from time to time the people throwing them at me can shove them up their own arse!

I deliberately kept a low profile on the last blog as I don't always get the best response from people if I do a blog that's a little down (OK so that was a major downer) and I expected numbers to be lucky to hit double figures and well they had done that within the first hour, so I believe that was the upward lift my life needed at that time (simple things for a simple mind) I still stand by all I wrote at the time but god what a misery I must be (I can hear everybody stood behind me going YES YOU ARE!) but I need to hunt out Charlotte's CD because my writing (that's all the other stuff) has been rather crap and I need to pull my finger out (hey these bad boys don't write themselves).

Tomorrow well lets just say I go back to dealing with stupid people and hopefully I will stay in a good frame of mind  it should as I have just uploaded 400 new tunes onto the Ipod, technology keeps coming back to bite us as the wife has gone into SHOUTY mode because of computer issues and she is expecting me to fix it, this could get nasty, I can but try!

We will continue to run silent run deep as I sell my blood and anything else I can to keep the good ship misery afloat times are hard but you know what i really don't care bring it on I have been here before and no doubt will be here again so lets do the dance its all part of life's rich (in my case poor hahahaha) tapestry. as long as I have music in the background hopefully I'm sure I can bring happiness to the world and all the miserable people out there! if not if it was the god old US of A I could always buy a loaded gun and go out in a blaze of glory! but because I'm English I will have a cup of tea and some jaffa cakes so until the next time all I can say is Toodles Bitches!