Sunlight Seen Through Towering Trees.

It’s not that I don’t have the time, it would appear that I simply do not have the inclination, that and a permanent black cloud hovering over my mood is certainly sucking the joy out of me!

I haven’t been able to kick start my brain and I should be overjoyed as the last blog crushed in numbers terms (no I’m not expecting half the numbers for this one) I let the last one run and run, it did, even a lot of the older ones were picked up in its wake, but there was no joy I simply glared at the screen in my perpetual grim mood!

What’s wrong? I hear you ask, to tell the truth its simply life as we know it and I am struggling to keep this boat on an even keel, thankfully not many peeps have picked up on it, except me, I notice all of the growling! I have tried giving my head a shake but its simply not doing the deed its not “Bob” (please see previous blogs) its just me being grumpy, no not old, just grumpy, and if I’m honest I’m not too happy about the new me.

Even music is not cutting the mustard, although I still have been playing lots, it would appear that my taste has not been impressing the office, the name game is in play and I have played quite a bit of this artist and his previous band, it usually ticks the box but not these last few days! I have had a couple of days off and I feel like the commander of Das Boot rather than a happily married family man, I am avoiding going outside even though I can I’m not buying any of the vitamin D that everybody has been recommending.

If my batteries need recharging, I have the distinct impression that I seem to have the wrong size charger, because my spirits are not being lifted, I bought drink last week but I am avoiding it as I believe I would simply become more of a misery to everyone in my sphere!

All forms of entertainment is not doing anything for me, the only thing that I seem to be able to enjoy (if you really can call it that) is sleep and that is simply full of weird dreams, I don’t feel refreshed after the sleep and I do spend part of my day trying to remember the details, I wish I knew what it means (if it means anything at all) but its safe to say I am not a happy bunny!

So, I thought I had better try and break the log jam and simply get this blog out there and then even if its still being read I’m determined to do something of a happier nature altogether at the weekend, I hope! I have no idea what yet, historical or otherwise (maybe even something a tad different) I mean I’m not in a bad place, I’m simply grumpy and I don’t like being grumpy, well maybe not all of the time.

I haven't even proof read this one so damn the torpedoes and full speed ahead!

So lets hope this breaks the blogging IBS and I can finally get some traction and get blogging in a better style(here’s hoping ) there’s no need to worry, something will kickstart me and then it will a wild ride all over again, so watch the skies for incoming, definitely this weekend (allegedly), so until then stay safe and until the next time…………………Toodles!

When the walls come tumbling down.

I needed to give my head a shake, so I had a rather large drink, unfortunately it bounced off me and this morning I feel like I never had one!

I have been in a downward spiral of pain with my knees over the last couple of weeks with extra duties at work, and to be honest work has been great with me, then through an injury to my foot and I was simply a misery.

Lots of laptop issues started all of my tale of woes thankfully now resolved (I have no idea how) but since the last blog its been nothing crap all the way!

A number of other things ran aground, this didn’t help me one little bit and the to top it all off on Friday our cunning plan bit the dust, cue much wailing and gnashing of teeth, yesterday we told the guy and he wasn’t happy, trust me we weren’t either, so I dragged the wife off to Tesco to get her and me out of the house for some fresh air and well I wanted to spend, so we bought stuff that could have waited and then the wife saw some t shirts she wanted, so I got her them oh and then I bought some drink, lots of it!

I know its not the answer, and I rarely drink these days but a bottle of Jack, Buffalo Trace and some lovely Polish vodka with a box of 12 bottles of cider thrown in for good measure it did the trick, £130 later and we were heading home, oh yes and lots of chocolate! I was unhappy there was no Kellogg’s Frosties available (they have been missing in action for weeks) so I had to make do with the stores own brand, I will see on Monday if they do the trick, why Monday? well I had a bacon and mushroom buttie this morning!

Well the Jack went the distance last night and it kind of bounced off me, it had very little effect, but I reckon it did the trick, and I do not even feel ropey this morning, go figure! I wasn’t even a pain in the arse, which I believe is unusual when I have that much too drink!

A late night to bed and I slipped off into the land of nod but I was awoke about an hour later with a Roland chewing on the poison laid out for him in the loft (die you rodent die) once awake I had to come downstairs as I would have woke the wife, not good for her, so I snoozed on the settee until the hound started to whinge.

Breakfast has been and gone medication taken, I now just await the rest of the house to rise for us to try and have a better day, I knew I had to blog as the longer I left it the harder it would have been to kick start it all over again, especially with my mood, its not lifted 100% but it’s a start.

The numbers for the last one was pretty damn good; I don’t care what this one does hopefully I will be in a better frame of mind for the next one!

So there you go if you aren’t happy with this one join the club, I would like something nice to happen for us for once as I’m pig sick of swimming against the current, me selfish? Actually, for once why not?

So watch the skies for incoming because like buses there will probably be another one along before you know it, until then ……………Toodles!