Digital Man.

And so it begins, I have been to my diabetes clinic, now big brother is watching!

I have been in the wars these last couple of months what with continually falling, having dodgy knees, my diabetes and my get up and go has got up and quite simply buggered off, now you put in the mix attempting to help the wife and her issues and the grandson and his condition, it doesn’t leave me with a lot of well, get up and GO!

My arse has been handed to me on a regular basis these last 12 months, if I’m honest I haven’t exactly helped myself, when I have been down for any of the above, oh and let’s not forget I went 3 months without my medication (thanks to Brexit) it all adds up to a colossal Cluster F**k, it feels like I have been swimming against the tide in a Maelstrom and I’m not the best swimmer!

So me and the wife came up with a cunning plan to get me into the Dr’s by hook or by crook, I had two meetings back to back (I have been working from home today) so the wife was going to ring up (their method not mine) to see if I could see somebody about my knees, my first appointment didn’t turn up (they are now on the shit list) so I headed downstairs as I heard my wife talking to somebody at the Dr’s “could I get there for eleven this morning” erm no of course I bloody well could, the wife said thank you and I headed upstairs to make a start at the long list of tasks so I could head out on time!

As always, I was in ten minutes early, maybes it wasn’t a good thing as everybody that was coming out of the consulting rooms was saying the same thing “that was a waste of time”, should I just go home now? Just then my name was called and a nice person listened to my waffle and took notes, explaining I was basically getting slower and I couldn’t stop a pig in an alleyway, then I was told to “get my pants off” erm I’m a good boy I am, a cursory examination of my knees, she looked for my notes from 13 years ago to see what the surgeon had said, once I sat down fully clothed again, she explained the “good news and then the bad news” there’s a system but I have done the right thing to come in and start the ball rolling, then she slapped me because I don’t take painkillers (it’s a man thing) take paracetamol and stop being a masochist, I need to have some X Rays taken of my knees (that’s tomorrow) then I have to see a pyshio and then and only then will I see a Dr, oh well we have started the ball rolling.

I arrived back home with a renewed vigour trying to sort my list of tasks out, that simply didn’t appear to be shrinking, funny that…...NOT! a small lunch and back to the grind, my mind was wandering as I know I needed to do a blog, but as I said my get up and go had buggered off, I had another appointment this afternoon, my diabetes clinic appointment, I had slopped food on myself (no surprise there for anyone who knows me in the real world) so a quick wash and a change and I was heading back to the surgery to take my usual spot ten minutes ( I am a creature of habit) to sail through the door as always bang on time, today was a results day some good some bad, some strange and a moment of scratching of heads, 85% of it was good ( I am the number one patient I do as I’m told) I new plan of attack and I was stuck like a suckling pig (well kind of ) I now wear a monitor stuck into my arm to record my blood levels without me pricking my finger, they disappear off to a cloud and are analysed by big brother, ok my diabetes specialist, this could be interesting, it will also make sure that I play the game and not veer off the beaten track and to be found  head first in the fridge at silly o clock.

A little skullduggery (if I tell you I will have to kill you all) and my X Rays tomorrow and simply tons of graft at work, so unless I feel inspired I do believe a low profile could be part of the coming weeks, lets just go with the flow and see when I drift upon the shoreline at some point, the name game is in play and its my least favourite track on this particular album, but hey what do I know, the blogs have been doing good, however the last one stalled at 50% of the other blogs, I kind of get it but it’s a disappointment so I know I need to pull my finger out and simply “Must Do Better” so watch the skies for incoming keep spreading the disease as the numbers really are kind of super at this rate we will break last years numbers and damn were they good! So onwards and upwards I might have some new knees in about 8 years and hopefully a better handle on my diabetes in the coming months, hopefully that will help me, stay safe stay alive, until the next time………………..Toodles!

IDGAF.

 

Yes, it’s a song title, no it’s not my usual type of music, it was playing at work, it stuck in my head, it’s my frame of mind, nothing to do with anything but my frame of mind, it’s been a while, but it was bound to happen! let’s be honest (I always am!)

It’s not a “Bob” blog it’s a me blog, trying to do way too many things with not enough emotion left in the tank, life’s not helping, works not helping, I will reach a point and then recharge and take on the world all over again. The blog has been doing silly numbers so I’m back to second guessing myself, a load of good ideas, I’m simply avoiding them, why? Because its who I am, simply allowing the worms to burrow and for me to feel, this way!

The emotion sinks then gets shaken off, it’s just the way life is, I’m currently operating on around the single figure mark, and I suppose I’m alternating between angry and non-committal to pfft, they are all in there I need to be in the high double figures to operate well.

The blog is annoying me simply because of typo’s and other anomalies, which I know weren’t there when they were originally typed as I’m a person with OCD wanting perfection, I never get it but there must be some kind of glitch in the programming of the page, as words are missing or simply just letters causing me to have a blow out, sometimes are worse than others, I spend a lot of time writing these and then receive a number of missives saying that their toddler could write better English, (maybe it should be DILLIGAF) obviously I do!

I have been compiling notes on the previous blogs, again some annoying things popped up some things that made me really angry, but mainly stuff that made me go Meh! A week’s holiday and yes you guessed it I was ill, just the back end of the worst cold in a decade (I don’t normally do colds but this one has been hanging in there for grim death, and yes, it’s a grim, grim death! I’m sure that’s been the prime cause of my mood, I need to get my get up and go back into my life, I have never been like this before, again this is me, I’m still trying my best for everyone else but me personally for myself I simply don’t seem to care, and I hate feeling this way!

I’m hoping by putting some of the bile down onto (metaphorical ) paper I can break the log jam, even music hasn’t helped, as always plenty being played, but I’m simply not feeling the vibe, it is what it is, I’m not looking for sympathy just trying not to use dynamite to break the log jam as I feel that potentially will have damaging consequences in the real world, so there you go a blog done not a great one, (I can be self-critical so sod off) but these pop up from time to time they do help honestly.

So, until I can create something that I can be positive about and have the sensation that it’s actually any good, this will have to do, so keep spreading the disease, do what you ever you maniacs do as the blogs numbers have been damn good, something to be happy about (NOPE) stay safe stay alive until the next time ……………. Toodles.