Behaviour Control Technician.

I know, I know, I know that you have all missed me, the  last blog although hasn’t done the fantastic numbers of the previous few, it has still done well and has been limping along with hits everyday over the last four weeks, and yes I kept using that as an excuse not to write anything, the longer you go the easier it is to leave the page blank, something I seem to be doing a lot lately! In life and in the blogs, go figure.

Yes the name game is as always in play and I suspect you lot will have to google it as I have a feeling that not many will know it, having said that the last one was relatively easy (King Crimson pop pickers) and obviously nobody could be arsed to google that either, having said that if I don’t show that I care why should any of you lot, the discerning reader!

My intention had been to call this one “I Don’t Know” after the Ozzy song (oops did I spoil that one for you?) But I have been playing a lot of this particular artist, simply trying to lift my spirits and have been failing miserably, no not the choice of music, just the way I have felt, no black dog following me, simply wallowing in………….nothingness, hence the reason why no blog of late, I know I said I was going to give my head a shake, but if I shake it much more I’m worried something might just fall out!

I had a week to clear my head from life the universe, and well it would appear that I failed miserably, finances haven’t helped, even though we have been very good, August is always a strange month, I went back to work and yet again life spluttered, lots of great music old and new but nope I was still only firing on two cylinders and not being able to put a finger on it simply makes it worse.

Wandering aimlessly through this thing we call life has been …..meh kind of rubbish, another week of respite and yet my head still isn’t in the best of places, not gaining any traction is kind of dragging me down, lots of lovely people being in contact some with strange and lovely questions for another “Now Hear This” which because of upcoming plans I might just do at posting 450, it all depends on the questions collated or whether I am actually struggling to gather enough prose to post! All of my cunning plans seem to have been holed below the water line and I have even left “The Whalers Dues” alone simply because I do not want to re-infest it with bile, just when you all thought I was just about to post it…………..NOT!

I need to get back on the horse (that’s blogging boys and girls I haven’t bought another pet) so don’t be shocked if you get a couple (yeah right) in the coming weeks, well ok it might be longer as when I go back to work next week I’m away for an educational course and I’m not taking two laptops (work’s and mine) one little black book for notes but nothing electronic that’s not work related! I definitely need to have my head on straight as it’s a hard course, one in which I have been requesting for over six years now, so I better not fail it like the last bloody one.

So I need to work through my tiny list of chores (a few each day rather than one long slog) and then spend the weekend prepping for the (not so ) jolly jaunt away from my home and my loved ones maybe its just what I need, no I’m not blaming my loved ones for my malaise, but I need to up my game and this might just help me.

I have  been bumping into a few old friends over the last few weeks and I have to admit that it has been lifting my spirits when I see them, people I have known for over 30 years and although I live in the same neck of the woods I very rarely seem them, the level of field craft from the people who I live closest to is phenomenal , it was lovely simply to say hello and spend a few minutes interacting, asking how their family and loved ones are doing, I know I need to make the effort more often, maybe if I left the house every now and again that might help, in life and in blog writing. I have even avoided historical blogs as they haven’t helped me, I need to be in a good place to write them otherwise this ship will sink even if I was in shallow water or not! Historical ones seem to take a lot more out of me so to try and write them when I’m not in a happy place is counterproductive.

So, there you have it, finally some written word from me the happy camper from Gimpsville, the fact that I have actually put pen to paper (figuratively speaking) is a step in the right direction, hopefully! Lets see what the coming weeks bring,  I’m not expecting these next few blogs to be sponsored by NASA, a few of the earlier ones have done old school viewing figures and to be honest that did indeed put a smile on this old cynic’s face, even  if just for a couple of minutes, what am I going to do for the rest of the day, well play some more music so hopefully I can be inspired with life or worse case scenario another blog (you never know) so watch the skies for incoming and do what you lot seem to do best  keep spreading the disease, until the next time …………………Toodles!