Its the end of the world as we know it!

 

Words seem to be everywhere, words upon words, people talk drivel, use My head is full of ill thoughts, bad words and a whole lot of other piffle, big words to hide what they mean what they intend, it’s all the same and its only getting worse, the holiday hasn’t felt like a holiday and my sleeping habits have worsened, I have no idea why or what else could be causing it, its making me fractious!

Actions hide actions, people don’t intend to keep their word by completing tasks assigned to them, I was busy, I didn’t see it, so many excuses, so many dark thoughts of intent, so many false promises, with no intention to assist in any way! I’m suspicious simply because I can be, lack of sleep is definitely not helping, the health of the wife and the stress she is under isn’t helping, all the while I’m suspicious of people’s motives, people who say they intend to do things but don’t / haven’t!

Lies, they are everywhere, people seem to have no issues what so ever in spewing forth the crap that they think people wish to hear, the truth would be nice, but people tend to give what they receive, and when they do get the truth, they are offended, the world is so easily offended, out of sight out of mind, until they want a professional opinion, 35 years there and now I’m gone after nearly three years gone they appear before me as friends, but it’s simply they don’t have a clue and want to know how to do a certain thing, they are not happy with my response, I have told them not to do it, not for a gold pig unless directed by someone above and only then get it in writing, the deed has the potential for a small room and bars on the window, they thought I was going to tell them how to circumnavigate the law! Nope, no sir, I wouldn’t in my previous work life and I won’t help you into a dock now!

People are more important than everybody else. Nobody is of consequence, trample the weak and hurdle the dead, it’s the motto of modern man, nobody helps anybody else, unless there is something in it for them, never a helping hand simply to help, always an ulterior motive! Let’s see if they turn up on the designated hour, I doubt that they will, especially after I have said that I won’t be party to it, you need to be very, very qualified which none of them are, chinless wonders who don’t want to pay the dues to maintain something, I will assist the prosecution, but not the gang of four!

Falsehoods, and insincere motives, it tells you all you need to know about not just the individual,  but the whole population in general, Inane platitudes hoping that the visage of being nice will hopefully push you into doing something that somebody else should be doing, people seem to be unable to help, seem to not want to help, time moves on slowly, but the world is still going to hell and people lie about it and the consequences with a smile and a grimace.

These words have been written as a stream off thoughtlessness with no intention of doing anything about what I am railing against. Sometimes it’s good to spew forth against nothing in general, simply wishing to be annoying, not helpful, but that’s what the rest of the world is like, there are some people wonderful like the diamond shinning in the coal pile, they stand out, if  you know anyone like this, cherish them, because they will make you see that there is good in the world I do know people like this and I do hold them very close, I may not see them as much as I would like to, who knows what the new year  and new promise can bring?

My view of the world is jaded at the moment, I do try to be as positive person, it has taken a battering even more so in the last 6 months, wealth, health and the general meaning of life have taken a great battering of late, simply because we are isolated, and getting more isolated with the lies that are fed by insincere people, that’s mainly me and actually I should say they are former friends who cut and run as soon as they knew I wouldn’t be of any use to them, all of the good ones got out at the same time! not friends but friends of friends with a smiling face, but no good intentions, they simply want to do as little as they can to reap the maximum from your soul, I don’t trust these kind of people and I don’t like the majority of them, I have some friends who I see very little of but I hold them dear to my heart and miss them more every day, but they are always in my thoughts and wishes.

This is simply an exercise in exorcising the bad that haunts my thoughts, trying to be a better person, trying to improve myself for the better, I think myself as a good person, but the blackness that infects my soul has to be stopped, I don’t wish to appear jaded, I want to appear involved, I want to be actually involved, I want to actually help people, I want to be  seen to helpful, kind and any other descriptive word that brings positivity. I do not want to bring negativity to anybody, I need to do this for me, not for others, I do want to help others, but not to the detriment of me and my family,  I want to be full of positive vibes, I want to be there for genuine people, genuine  family and genuine  friends, you all know who you are!

How do I do this, simply by being in the present, something I have been guilty of not being, I need to improve not only for myself, but for friends, family and the general public, can I , will I, the intention is there, I can only but try , the new year brings new issues and retains all of the old ones, my intention is to mow them down like a fine lawn and to make sure that for everybody involved they receive the best me, so that the “lawn” is fed and watered by me so that everybody benefits, will I achieve this? I have no idea I can but try, this is my wish, promise, intention to be the best person that I can be in the coming year! Watch this space.

That’s me expelling all of the festering rottenness of 2023, I am looking forward to seeing the genuine friends in the new year don’t say that you haven’t been warned we need you otherwise it will be a long down wards spiral, now don’t forget we are available for weddings, bar mitzvahs, gigs, general chat , quick visits you name I’m sure that we can accommodate you all, and this is the last blog of 2023, so until the coming year that is 2024…..Toodles!