With a Little Help From My Friends

I actually have a historical musical blog hot to trot in the wings, but for once I intend to be a responsible adult, yes, I know me with my reputation, its not a down in the dumps blog, its simply holding out a helping hand for anybody who needs it!

I’m no longer drowning; I am actually waving!

If  you have been reading these blogs you will know that I have been suffering/suffer from mental health issues, I’m not the only one out there, again I am doing a lot better than I was, I don’t think that I will ever be cured, but I did the right thing and got help.

It took me over 32 years before I asked for help, something I had avoided (please see the blogs that I wrote as I underwent my treatment) for so long with me and my friends and family suffering along the way in various degrees, I was ashamed, I have no reason why, the issue wasn’t caused by me, I just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time, it took me over 30 years of torturing myself to realise that!

I completed a CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy)course, this was meant to be 12 weeks, it lasted 22, I had issues and I simply stopped denying it, I asked for help, nobody was more surprised about it than me, am I cured? hell no, but I have less traumatic episodes and my life is now as normal as it probably will be, every day I continually still relive the same six minutes of a particular episode in my life, but I now have some tools to help me cope with them on a daily basis.

I am more open about my condition than I have ever been, I actually talk about it, allegedly if you bottle something up for over 32 years its not good for a person, who knew! Along the way some awesome people actually stopped, they didn’t have to but they did, they stopped along the way of life and picked me up, I may not see them very often (barely at all these days, thankfully not because I am hiding) but I love those people dearly, no names no pack drill, if I can help just one person in the way that you guys helped me, then it will have been worth it, I have no intention of putting the spotlight on those individuals, except to say thank you, you all saved me from doing something stupid!

No I was never thinking of self-harm, although abusing alcohol to numb the pain was something that was abused from time to time, these people kept me on the straight and narrow when in a confused state I simply didn’t care, I was simply trying to dull the pain, from the moment I got up until I crawled back up the wooden hill in a stupor to suffer all over again with a sleepless night, its amazing what punishment the human body will take! I now realise that some of my friends are in a similar position people who outwardly are doing great, but inwardly are in a knock down drag out fight with themselves and they are losing in the 11^th round.

I have no magic wand, but if I can help I will help, I know simply by reading some of the messages that you people send me that there is a lot of pain out there, ask for help, you will be surprised at the help you will get, some people might be abrupt with you, that’s fine that’s just their way but nobody (unless they are evil selfish bastards) will not reach out to help you.

If I can help please reach out I’m no expert, but it helps to talk it helps to lift the burden of weight from your shoulders, these are proud people but even proud people need help, they may not know what it is that is dragging them down, but please simply reach out, if not to me then to someone who cares for you, someone that you trust, simply ask for help, if you don’t its more than you that suffers in the long run, there is no quick fix, you have to pick up every single day and run with it, if you can do that then you are well on your way!

That ends the lesson for today, you have to be open and honest with the ones that you love allow them to enter your life completely the person who loses in the end is you, don’t be conflicted it helps  it really does, you can get better if I can anybody can, I mean that I had some dark days in my life I howled at the moon on a regular basis, I still have the occasional speed bump in the road, but now life is worth living, I’m not stupid enough to realise I stand alone, if you have family love them, they will love you back, love is not the enemy! I have a simple credo that I use every single day, as long as I wake up happy, I can take just about handle anything life decides to throw at me.

This may have been written on the spur of the moment, but we all need help at some point in our lives, we are all isolated at some point and I intend to help anybody  that I can, I intend to show people the love and respect that I was shown, I reached out to the lifeboat of life and I was hauled aboard by people who had there own issues, but they gave a damn enough about mine to help, we all can help someone!

Hold on Pain Ends!

Toodles!

God I’m starting to sound like a bloody hippy, hang on I need to give my head a shake!

Normal service will be resumed with the next blog!