Since the
last blog it would appear that I have had a fair amount of time to reflect on
life the universe and the fluff in my belly button, and all I can do is come to
the conclusion it’s simply the fact that I am damaged (and yes, the name game is
in play).
What makes
me think that, well the fact that I have to try and drag a song title into the
blog title 99.9% of the time is probably a great indicator, if I don’t have a song title in mind I have a
tendency to waffle (what do you mean I always do……how very dare you) I had a
weeks holiday away with the wife and we simply chilled, and the weather was
fab! we did visit a few places of historical interest, but by and large we were
away for 3 of the 7 days off and we had what I would consider a good holiday,
yes I was still awake at silly o clock every morning, but I didn’t seem to mind
because I was on holiday, I started a book (reading not writing) I didn’t finish
it, but I started one so that’s a good start.
I also when
allowed to it would appear I tend to overthink everything, its better when my
brain is blank, or more dangerous I’m not sure, I seem to be aware of my
mortality more now I have turned the dreaded 60 (how the hell did that happen?)
I have realised that I have very few answers to anything if my life, so I tend
to bimble from one disaster to another, if I’m honest I don’t care about it
either! obviously I would like to have some good luck enter our orbit at some
time, but as long as I wake up I ( I would love it to be a little later if
possible) happy, I’m quite happy to bimble, as I get older it would appear that
my ambition to lead from the front shrinks, if only my belly would!
I have
enjoyed copious amounts of music (as always) but it would appear that I have
taken to watching (very old) films (the older the better), films from a bygone
era, I have always liked older films but I’m more inclined to watch the TV than
I have ever done in my 60 years, I blame the wife I feel that she is a bad
influence, I can blame her she forces me to watch rubbish as well, thankfully
its tasteful rubbish none of this celebrity driven drivel, but cop shows and
the such like, I still prefer documentaries more than anything else, I like
factual things I do like to learn, but I want to learn the easy way, simply because
my head is battered because of all the legal reading I do for my job (my latest
reread is all about confined spaces…….oh the thrill of it all) work is still up
in the air with everything that has been going on, we find out all that’s going
to happen next Monday, I’m passed sweating it, what happens, happens I’m not in
charge I can simply follow the instructions given! Well sometimes I do, honest I
do try and follow instructions, just don’t ask the wife!
How has the
blog been doing? well if you consider it against when I was writing consistently
last year, its doing badly, but its still ok by me and the numbers are starting
to lift once more in the right direction (maybe not after this one) and I still
get the odd query trickling through, I think I can live with that, I do really
have any option it is what it is, but its ok, maybe it might reach the heady
heights of the previous years but I am simply going to go with the flow and not
worry about it!
I think I will
have to get my finger out and do a historical blog, I have a couple of irons in
the fire, but I’m not sure which one to pull from the brazier’s heat to mould
into something readable, watch this space and see what happens, life in the
real world appears to be increasingly shite, and as I get older I wish to
engage with less every day, at least I’m honest about it, I have to admit the
last few weeks have been “Bob” free so that’s a good thing, I’m not stupid I know
that lurks just outside of the sight line, but it’s a small victory that I will
take, todays a good day so I shall take it!
I think I will stop while I’m ahead it means
that I can polish this piece until it is
a slightly shiny turd, I know I’m damaged, I have accepted as long as I have my
looks and my hair……......hang on a minute! Enjoy the day enjoy your life, try
and enjoy the blog you get one life and you don’t get out of it alive, so stay
safe stay alive, I’m told by the wife there is the potential for life out in
the big bad world at some point in the immediate future, who knows we might
friends and it might just spark a blog or two! So, until then…………………. Toodles!
And remember
we are all fools …... The Mob Rules!