Thursday, 19 June 2025

Man on the Edge.


For some reason I have had this song in my head all week, I have no reason why, I mean I’m not even a big fan of it, I simply can’t seem to shake the bloody thing!

So yes, the name game is in play for anybody who wants to play along, the only real bright spot in my life at the moment is the numbers for the blog, simple things for a simple man, I know I said it before you all piled in.

The title could have been any number of songs, but generally I seem to be falling an awful lot of late both figuratively and actually! We keep getting curve balls thrown at us, and although we seem to dodge most of them, it still seems to gets us on the rebound, I have tried to be good, but life keeps kicking me in the butt.

Work seems like I am the mole in whack a mole and it’s only going to get worse; I also didn’t win the EuroMillions this week so there’s no sign of my escape planning coming to fruition, well not yet! I took a slight tumble as I tried to motivate myself to get to a bus stop in time for me to make a connection, however it turns out the bus I saw and thought was going to take me to my destination went the other way and my futile attempt to pick up speed simply made me look like the old man that I have become, copious amounts of painkillers got me through the next 24 hours, go figure!

I realise that I’m no longer the world class (cough splutter) athlete that I once was, but my ego has been seriously delated in the last few months! We initially had a bit of good fortune but it’s still tempered with the ongoing saga of the crap with the estate of the kraken, which two years down the line is really starting to annoy me and its simply not helping the wife and her grieving, it’s like a scab that just as it heals gets ripped off and we have to start all over again, Legal people have one speed…..SLOW! the wife sorted out 99% of the issues within 14 days here we are 24 months later and the issue still isn’t resolved, we wont see any money out of it, we don’t care,  we simply wanted to clear the debt, all the while interest is still accruing I still say we should wash our hands of it and walk away, we have spent over a thousand pounds of our money paying for things including insurance, I keep getting told that there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, I have a sneaky feeling it’s an oncoming train!

Music still is a massive part of my emotional blanket, I’m glad I don’t drive, simply as I drift off into the memories that surface while listening, one of the main joys this week is the remastered version of Queen’s debut album with an added track I must have played it more than half a dozen times, but I still go back to when I first heard it in 1974, who knew it would still be with me all these years later, I have to admit that six of the first seven Queen albums have been in heavy rotation this week, you have to rely on the classics!

A number of cunning plans keep resurfacing this week we simply have to pick one and walk briskly with it, I would say run but neither myself or the wife can…...at the moment! The wife is coming up on the outside lane with a dodgy knee (in a manner of speaking) I can’t say I sympathise, as I am suffering just as bad, as I set off to work to complete yet another 10000 to 18000 steps carrying a 23.9 KG bag ( I know its 24 KG it’s a two person lift and there’s only me so go figure) I have to tell myself telling her to “Suck it Buttercup” would probably see me stop breathing in the middle of the night, I might be dumb but I sure ain’t stupid (erm……).

So, that’s another blog complete let’s see if the numbers continue to rise, I don’t care as it something of a mystery why all of a sudden people start to read the back editions of the blog, but over 5000 hits in the last week is a bloody good mystery for me to have, so until the next one stay safe and stay alive, but for now it’s Toodles!

Sunday, 8 June 2025

Right Here Right Now. Part 2.


Life seems to be one long cluster fuck after another at the moment, in my home life, Work, my Health, you name it, its circling the drain, but I’m not going down without a fight!

Work, there was/is redundancies, I was told I was safe, but my opo went and now my boss who was knocked back has left anyway, he went and got another job and is away so that leaves me, all by myself (I’m sure that there’s a song in there somewhere) yeah with the way my health is, let’s just say it’s getting interesting!

My Home Life, well there’s always drama in and around us, not between me and the wife, just nothing going according to plan, the wife has severe health issues and is now following me down the route of having a dodgy knee, I’m not being helpful as I suffer every day, me simply saying suck it up buttercup hasn’t helped at all…….OOPS!

My health is as crap as ever, I did have a rant at the last appointment saying I was doing everything that they have asked me to do with little or no success, to say I’m a bit miffed is an understatement, and a stern message was delivered, do something that will help or I will go off reservation and I don’t give a damn on the consequences! The staff are great, however they are following the party line, they know my feelings and they know I will follow through with my promise!

About the only thing that’s been doing well is this, the blog itself, for some reason peeps have been reading back issues and the numbers are through the roof, and I have no idea why!

Technology isn’t helping as my laptop has gone through a number of upgrades and now it seems to do whatever it likes, admittedly this particular laptop is 14 years old and all though I do have a couple of newer ones this is the one that appears to act as my muse, unfortunately most of the various platforms that I interact with peeps seem to not want to talk to me, so if you have been conversing with me and are not now, blame technology and not the luddite operating this fine piece of technology!

And that’s me disappearing down the rabbit hole, trying to gain some semblance of sanity, to be honest at the moment I really don’t give a rat’s ass about most things, but my bilge pump has stopped working and soon I’ll be drowning and not waving! People seem to like this type of blog 500 words and under so lets see how this one does, the last music one did above average and I have another nearly finished so hopefully will be along before to lo soon, so on that note, thanks for the peeps doing the reading, watch this space as there is more on the way soon!