Time.

I have always been obsessed about time since I was a little boy and as I get older it would appear that I am getting more and more obsessed, me with my reputation go figure!

I was taught to tell the time before I could read a book, watches, clocks, items that tell time have always been a source of fascination, at one point in our house we had in excess of fourteen clocks of all shapes and sizes, I do admit to wish I had managed to talk the wife into having a grand Father or Mother clock (no joy boo hoo) I have had a number of watches over the years, my first being a Timex for my third birthday, I have only recently given up a watch I received for my twenty first (from my first wife) because there is no one locally who can fix it or source parts for it, I checked the original seller who I still know, he hadn’t seen parts for this watch for over fifteen years (shame as I do like the watch) but that doesn’t mean that I don’t have a couple that need batteries, a Seiko Kinetic is my main watch these days but I do tend to wear my fit bit (cheap knock off) all the time except for in the bath or charging, sad I know! I’m not a lover of really expensive watches, I can appreciate them, I could never indulge in them, they are too much like technology and people know what I am like with technology!

Why the rambling opening? well time pretty much rules me, I hate it if I am late (I mean I really do get angry if I’m late) if a bus is late I tut, I have gotten used to the wife and her time keeping, I simply work around it, I don’t get angry anymore as I simply factor in her skill set, I’m obsessed with timings of things length of songs/albums, bus journey’s, length of time I need to factor in when walking these days (now that does annoy me since I have become a cripple)  my first holiday with the wife and eldest daughter I was told I couldn’t wear a watch (I bought one on the plane on the runway)as I get older I know that the beauty of time is slowly robbing me of the very thing I obsess about…….TIME!

I realise that at various points in my life I have wasted vast tracts of time with work and then even more work,  (unfortunately we needed money so I had to work long hours) I missed some (not all) important parts of my daughter’s lives, I also had some pretty great moments in both of their lives, with more still to come. I missed time with my own family, with friends and most of all myself, is he mad I hear you ask, whenever “Bob” turns up that time is lost from the madness that envelops my brain with a kind of deep fog, my life at the moment is moving in the right direction (touching wood) concerning “Bob” but I’m not cured, I know that as soon as I forget, like a tide he will sweep back in and play havoc!

What is this sudden resurgence in being obsessed about time, over the last three months I have been surviving on three to four hours sleep a night, I have no problem going to sleep but once I wake (as a rule no matter what the cause) I cannot go back to sleep, I have to get up and wander the rooms of the house in semi darkness like a burglar, usually finding old classic films on dodgy Sky channels that I have never heard of, or scrolling through You Tube for old classic concerts or even worse watching (shudder) Instagram, whatever will happen to me, I’m becoming normal……YUK!  

Last night however I fell asleep and slept for over twelve yes that’s right over twelve hours, I had had a terrible day with my knees I had to give in and take some painkillers, I had to take (the slow boat from China) long journey home on a bus with cramped seats which didn’t help, I tried a soak in the bath, that didn’t work, so some more painkillers, that did however after a small meal work and I was soon asleep, until this morning when I woke up (downstairs in a chair, the wife has instructions just to leave where I am)  feeling fab! I don’t even feel bad when I have only had a small sleep I may wake up deflated, but I can carry on ok, but you build that up over twelve weeks or so, you soon realise that your life batteries are fading (I’m not a Duracell bunny after all) and I do need to be recharged, today however I feel great, I doubt I will sleep like that again for a couple of weeks, but hey ho I miss that, I used to be able to sleep like that most days, I learnt in the army eat while you can, sleep while you can, I can do both, I can eat anytime anywhere and just about anything (within reason) as for sleep I have been notorious for being asleep on public transport before it pulls away, with only a few mishaps, lets not go into those LOL, so the message is spend time with Family, spend time with friends, this we both need to do however we have the grandkids for the bulk of the weekend, so our plans were blown out of the water, but soon I promise / threaten the world soon we will be out and about!

Now this wasn’t what I had percolating for a blog but after all of that sleep well let’s just say I have been a super busy bunny working from home with many spinning plates and loving it all, I have been running silent and deep on social media simply because I needed some me time, nothing more, I tend not to be selfish with my time for me, but these last couple of weeks have caught up with me , so stay safe, stay alive, love your loved ones and watch the skies as there’s a couple of musical ones inbound, but until then………………Toodles!