I have
always been obsessed about time since I was a little boy and as I get older it
would appear that I am getting more and more obsessed, me with my reputation go
figure!
I was
taught to tell the time before I could read a book, watches, clocks, items that
tell time have always been a source of fascination, at one point in our house
we had in excess of fourteen clocks of all shapes and sizes, I do admit to wish
I had managed to talk the wife into having a grand Father or Mother clock (no
joy boo hoo) I have had a number of watches over the years, my first being a Timex
for my third birthday, I have only recently given up a watch I received for my
twenty first (from my first wife) because there is no one locally who can fix
it or source parts for it, I checked the original seller who I still know, he hadn’t
seen parts for this watch for over fifteen years (shame as I do like the watch)
but that doesn’t mean that I don’t have a couple that need batteries, a Seiko
Kinetic is my main watch these days but I do tend to wear my fit bit (cheap
knock off) all the time except for in the bath or charging, sad I know! I’m not
a lover of really expensive watches, I can appreciate them, I could never
indulge in them, they are too much like technology and people know what I am
like with technology!
Why the
rambling opening? well time pretty much rules me, I hate it if I am late (I mean
I really do get angry if I’m late) if a bus is late I tut, I have gotten used
to the wife and her time keeping, I simply work around it, I don’t get angry
anymore as I simply factor in her skill set, I’m obsessed with timings of
things length of songs/albums, bus journey’s, length of time I need to factor
in when walking these days (now that does annoy me since I have become a
cripple) my first holiday with the wife
and eldest daughter I was told I couldn’t wear a watch (I bought one on the
plane on the runway)as I get older I know that the beauty of time is slowly
robbing me of the very thing I obsess about…….TIME!
I realise
that at various points in my life I have wasted vast tracts of time with work and
then even more work, (unfortunately we
needed money so I had to work long hours) I missed some (not all) important
parts of my daughter’s lives, I also had some pretty great moments in both of
their lives, with more still to come. I missed time with my own family, with
friends and most of all myself, is he mad I hear you ask, whenever “Bob” turns
up that time is lost from the madness that envelops my brain with a kind of
deep fog, my life at the moment is moving in the right direction (touching
wood) concerning “Bob” but I’m not cured, I know that as soon as I forget, like
a tide he will sweep back in and play havoc!
What is
this sudden resurgence in being obsessed about time, over the last three months
I have been surviving on three to four hours sleep a night, I have no problem
going to sleep but once I wake (as a rule no matter what the cause) I cannot go
back to sleep, I have to get up and wander the rooms of the house in semi darkness
like a burglar, usually finding old classic films on dodgy Sky channels that I have
never heard of, or scrolling through You Tube for old classic concerts or even
worse watching (shudder) Instagram, whatever will happen to me, I’m becoming
normal……YUK!
Last night
however I fell asleep and slept for over twelve yes that’s right over twelve
hours, I had had a terrible day with my knees I had to give in and take some
painkillers, I had to take (the slow boat from China) long journey home on a
bus with cramped seats which didn’t help, I tried a soak in the bath, that didn’t
work, so some more painkillers, that did however after a small meal work and I was
soon asleep, until this morning when I woke up (downstairs in a chair, the wife
has instructions just to leave where I am) feeling fab! I don’t even feel bad when I have
only had a small sleep I may wake up deflated, but I can carry on ok, but you build
that up over twelve weeks or so, you soon realise that your life batteries are
fading (I’m not a Duracell bunny after all) and I do need to be recharged,
today however I feel great, I doubt I will sleep like that again for a couple
of weeks, but hey ho I miss that, I used to be able to sleep like that most
days, I learnt in the army eat while you can, sleep while you can, I can do
both, I can eat anytime anywhere and just about anything (within reason) as for
sleep I have been notorious for being asleep on public transport before it
pulls away, with only a few mishaps, lets not go into those LOL, so the message
is spend time with Family, spend time with friends, this we both need to do
however we have the grandkids for the bulk of the weekend, so our plans were
blown out of the water, but soon I promise / threaten the world soon we will be
out and about!
Now this wasn’t
what I had percolating for a blog but after all of that sleep well let’s just
say I have been a super busy bunny working from home with many spinning plates
and loving it all, I have been running silent and deep on social media simply
because I needed some me time, nothing more, I tend not to be selfish with my
time for me, but these last couple of weeks have caught up with me , so stay
safe, stay alive, love your loved ones and watch the skies as there’s a couple
of musical ones inbound, but until then………………Toodles!
