As always,
my health is cack, I intend to write this blog and then simply leave it at
that. I seem to be going around and around in circles when it comes to my
health.
My mental
health although not perfect is constantly being chipped away at, thanks to work
and life in general, bad luck seems to stalk us everywhere we go, because of
this I am not as happy as I make myself out to be! I do attempt to plod on
through but the ship is leaky and there’s only so much I can pump out before I become
exhausted, I’m under no illusion that there are people worse off than myself,
but for once I’m thinking about myself and not just everybody else!
Bob has not
reappeared, but it’s only a matter of time, I can see the tell-tale signs, the
first one is I have become listless, not caring
in many of my daytime tasks and when I get home I am exhausted, my get
up go left me many months ago but here I am trying to continue for the sake of
everybody else, Pain seems to a constant with my hip getting worse, I now take
regular doses of painkillers, not every day, but I don’t deny myself these
days! The fact that I’m not blogging as often as I used to is another symptom, I
still have an abundance of ideas, but having the gumption to attack the
keyboard, not so much!
I need my
knee operation, so, I need to lose ten kilograms before they will consider me,
so far, I have lost one kilo, this is also a symptom, I am doing all the right
things with little or no results, I am slowly getting demoralised, it feels
like I am trying to swim against the tide, and just so you know I’m not the strongest
swimmer! I am getting slower in my pace and I stop every 500 yards or so to
take the weight off my knees! Thankfully the chest issue seems to have receded,
I still get the odd pain in my chest but nothing on the scale that I used to,
maybe the medication is actually doing some good!
What I’m
not happy about is my other conditions, and I do think that the issue is the
medications that are the actual cause for the actual problems, I never had any
of my issues for diabetes until I started taking the medication for the
condition, my legs now seem to swell slightly, so much so that the wife has gone
out and bought special socks for me, they are a sticking plaster to an open wound,
I bruise easily and have no idea what has caused the bruise, my sleep pattern
is totally all over the place (around 3 to 4 hours a night) and I can fall
asleep at the most inappropriate times at work, I could always sleep on the bus
(eat while you can sleep while you can) but there’s been a couple of near
misses, where I could have actually travelled past my actual destination, that’s
simply not me!
The amount
of my medications has increased, as I suffer from a lack of this or that,
thankfully they are about to come to the end of the course so hopefully (I doubt
it) those issues will be resolved, I seem to be padding about my own house like
a burglar casing the next robbery! I am up at least three hours before I would
normally get up to go to work, and that’s early enough, I have started getting
the first bus available to work, I beat everybody in by about 90 minutes, I’m
surprised they haven’t had a security Prescence to make sure I’m not sleeping
within the building, I’m not, but hey ho I might end up there if the wife doesn’t
see an improvement in me and my health, when I “snooze” on and off through the
early evening, its only a matter of time until she takes an large stick to my
head, my memory is shot to pieces as well I used to be really good with facts
and figures is this the beginning of the end (I’m not trying to be dramatic but
it is unnerving) I’m not saying that I have dementia, but the wife has said it
a number of times, so it could be!
As I said
in the opening of this blog, no matter what happens this will be the last one
regarding my health, as I’m starting to sound like the band leader of Me, me, me
and Wailing Minnies! I can assure you all that I am just as sick of it as you
are, I don’t know where my health is heading, I get the impression its not
anywhere nice and I don’t think I’m going to have the final word!
So, the
intention is for the next couple of blogs are intended to be musical (fingers
crossed) I have the bare bones I simply have to knuckle down and get them
complete, hopefully there should be at least one in the next 7 to 10 days (that’s
the intention anyway), thank you for the kind words, and yes the name game is
in play (and this one isn’t an easy one) so stay safe and stay alive, until the
next (happier) blog……………………….Toodles!
