Jealous again

I'm still here just drifting along trying not to drop anchor in any particular harbour as my black cloud is back, but still keeping a safe distance, it knows if I get to grips with it, I now have the tools to kick its arse big style!

I'm also not writing anything structered purely because all my ideas are very untogether is the best way too describe them, lots of little things to write about just not sure how to approach them and how to keep them with a positive approach. they need to be joined up but at the moment I haven't got a clue on how to approach that particular issue, I might need a bit of practice.....go figure!

Others seem to be able to get on with their lives and I'm very jealous of them and their lives, it would appear that I appear to be sitting in neutral just ticking over and I have no idea on how to get it started, I know the wife will have a very big stick in which to deal with me sitting idling away the moments, it would appear that I realise I'm starting to act just a little "stir crazy"  I do need to get out of this sitting in darkened room routine its starting to become boring just a tad!

I managed to get the wife to take me further out into the wild lands, beyond Gimpsville, a glorious day with great weather and even better company (yes the wife), I even took my camera out with me and deleted every shot I took because they were so bland, but its a start I need to get that seed in me to germinate otherwise the good things that have been started may just come to yet another grinding halt, best foot forward and all that!

Numbers for the blog have been phenomenal, not sure why, but maybe that's a good thing, maybe I should just keep plugging away and not try to analyse the trends, I know nothing, I just know I like to write (as you can tell by this garbled mess ack ack ack) so yes I need to knuckle down and definitely do some writing, practise does indeed make perfect!

Music as always has been played long and hard, various formats tapes, mini discs, cd's I just need to take the plunge and get the old vinyl back in traction, lots of good stuff , Karnivool, Diving for pearls lots of Queen on a random shuffle that sounds a tad psychotic on my MP3 player old stuff new stuff and delving back into stuff that I didn't care for when people raved about it 25 years ago and nope I still don't get the fucker now boring and shite I can think of a million bands better just in Newcastle at the time, potential yes but very little spark I saw them twice and thought they were shite live as well, name them, oh no not me play the name game you might just guess!

Work is coming to its first natural break of the year, it cant come quick enough, I ain't got no money but I intend to do something with my life in the coming days, notice I didn't say wife we seem to have become slightly estranged of late but only in the word sense,  she has baby sitting (no not me) duties for the grand kids,pooches as well as the kraken and her pain in the ass husband, as well as work even though its those pesky zero hours take them while you can! I just need to complete four very long and painful days deep breath and yet again my best foot forward!

So there you go more drivel but a cunning plan moving forward at least in a writing kind of way, I have no intention of going all Kerouac on your ass's, bear with me I have some good eggs they just need nurturing, keep spreading the disease something is working out just fine, more music and some definite chilling is going to be the order of the day, I think we might be in for some good times and then lets see who will get jealous again but until then Toodles!